From one of my fav books

“And that's the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.”
― Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner

Maye ni maye! Me ek shikra yaar banaya!

Maye ni maye, main ik shikra yaar banaya

Ohde sir te kalgi
Ohde pairin chanjhar
O chog chugenda aaya

Ik ohde roop di dhup tikheri
dooja mehkan da tirhaya

Teeja ohda rang gulabi
O kise gori maan da jaya

Ishqe da ik palang nawari
Ve assan chanania vich daya

Tan di chadar ho gayi meli
Os pair jaan palange paya

Dukhan mere naina de koye
Te vich harr hanjuan da aaya

Sari raat gyi vich sochan
Os ae ki zulm kamaya

Subah savere layni vatna
We assan mal mal os navaya

Dehi de vichon niklan chingan
Ni sada hath gaya kumlaya

Churi kuttan ta oh kaunda naahi
Ve assan dil da maas khawaya

Ik uddari aisi mari
O murr watni na aaya

Maye ni..
Main ik shikra yaar banaya...

O my mother, I made a hawk my beloved,
A plume on his feet,
Bells on his feet!
He came pecking for grain!
His beauty was as sharp as sunlight,
And he was thirsty for fragnances!
Third, his color was like a red rose,
He must be son of a very fair mother!
A bed of love,
I laid for him under moonlight!
Sheet of this body was strained,
That very instant when he laid his feet over it!
Corner of my eyes hurt,
A flood of tears engulfed me!
All night long I tried to fathom,
How he could do this to me?
In early morning,
With beauty mix, I scrubbed and bathed his body!
There were flames coming out from the body,
My hand were burnt!
I crush food for him,
But he never ate!
So I fed him with flesh of my heart!
He took such a flight,
That he never returned back!
O my mother, I made a hawk my beloved….

The annoying me

I remember the last time i asked him too much about whats wrong with his mood he said, "you're too annoying". I wonder would he ever able to understand the pure feelings behind that annoyance of mine. Never. He's not much bothered about me. Never mind.

So its a really boring day at work. I am the only person in the whole block i guess, Thanks to Qadri sab. Yesterday trip to Khanpur was no less then a big big adventure. We had to pass beneath the containers placed the the entrance of Isb. Haye.

I am off from a couple of days. I don't know why. Sometimes i get off for no apparent reason. Well I have my fears. Which increase with every single day i spend with him. He always says he will tell me things when he will come to Pakistan. Fingers crossed. No, I don't want a surprise. It wont be pleasant. But he says he hasn't hidden anything from me and he says hes man of his words and, I, believe him. But, still, my fears are there..always there..i believe he was too much into someone, he never tells me that, for hes a close person. Gosh i hate that. He'd never share things with me. Anyway, again, NEVER mind.

I dont think I have been able to create my or ANY place in his heart all that long. I only wish i could. Wish he could see me. Though he knows i am involved and i am madly in love with him, but whats the use of that. Well i dont ask love in return, for, this is not a trade..khair..i don't know what i want..I don't want to betray my parents.

Little Sam is a darling. I want to smash her in my arms.

I might be resigning soon. I am fed up of this routine, want to fly away somewhere. Where nobody knows me and I'd have a life of my own. My way. Thats not possible on earth i know. I really really really wish my degree ends soon. It their any way someone else can complete my degree on my part? Duh! I know the answer.

I am writing a blog after long. I dont know what else to do. Nothing to do at work. Allah boring.

#NP me hosh me tha to uss pe mar mita kese.

I am dizzy now. Bye Bye!